I Hate Photos of Myself . . .

Updated on Jun 16, 2014
black asoscom top - army green Derek Lam for Kohls shirt
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LookSharpSconnie 's Thoughts:

A lot.

Which is strange, because 75% of the time I walk out the door, I feel good.
Not only about what I'm wearing, but about how I look in what I'm wearing--
a difficult feat.

Then again, it only seems difficult when analyzing the situation from the future.

I don't often leave home over-analyzing the thickness of my thighs, or how I reflexively close one eye when I laugh, or have an awkward mole on my left eyebrow, or some extra pudginess on my stomach.

But suddenly, photos like these ones come back,
and I DO.

Which, as a blogger who publishes photos of herself incessantly, is very difficult.

There's something about analyzing a photo in hindsight that serves as the absolute bane of my self confidence- the downfall of my body image peace. 

but why, I don't know.
Maybe a photo makes it easier to compare. Maybe, retroactively analyzing my body from an outside point of view makes it easier to set myself directly against those other women whose photographs I so admire.

And so it seems I have one of two options:
1. distance myself from my photographic image, and pretend that the ab-less, midriff-baring, girl in this photo is somehow someone separate from myself,
or...

 

2. accept that Yes- I did feel badass leaving the house like this-
and Yes- the photos themselves are badass-
and so Yes- I should continue to feel badass, regardless of how much I don't look like Erin Wasson naked on the beach when comparing our (in)comparable shorefront photos.

...

And I think we both know which one I'm aiming for.

Comments (2)

CarefreeContessa
CarefreeContessa on June 25
very cute
psiloveya
cute
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